Feeling fed up

Warning: Rant Post!

I'm sorry but I'm getting fed up of this inability to sleep. I find myself not falling asleep until past 3am most nights. This is getting ridiculous now and I feel that if I go to the doctors, he will just fob me off again so I will just keep plodding on.

Fortunately (or unfortunately) from which way you see it, I am not working at the moment due to helping my husband who's on PIP (the new version of DLA). We were struggling so much to get out and were thrilled to be accepted for PIP and he has been awarded until 2016 I think. The bit of extra money for that has helped me to care for him and get him out. We both have anxiety but his is more extreme and related to social situations so I find it crucial to try and get him out.

I had to give up work when we moved so that I could help him and then look what happens to me!

September was meant to be a great month due to it being our second wedding anniversary but instead, I found out about this condition. I cried for a while when they told me because I knew this was a lifelong condition and wouldn't go away with a tablet. NOTE: I hate taking tablets as I've always felt that I'm not myself, I've been on anti depressants, anxiety medication etc etc and always stopped it myself because I did not feel like the 'real me'.
Well, obviously I can't get out of this one. I have to take them and I hate it so much.

Since my husband is also 'ill', at least I have someone that kind of understands. Obviously, he doesn't have an underactive thyroid but he is ill in many other ways so knows how horrible it feels to surrender to an illness.

However, I am determined to find out as much as I can about my thyroid and I want to at least improve my situation in some way if I can.

I am on several groups on Facebook and have heard about gluten free lifestyles as being the way to go but I need to read more I think.

If anyone reads this ever, and has their own experiences or tips if you will, to share then please do because I'm quite new to this and I have no idea really what I'm doing or whether researching is worth it or not.

Cheers,

B